a change of momentum

On a recent trip to some schools in California, one statement spoken stuck with me: “sometimes you need to change the momentum.” Of course, this referred to the most effective approaches to student discipline.

But it also referred to me. I need a change of momentum. My life is consumed by sugar, overeating, and laziness. Since my Mom died, I’ve let myself go, to use the old adage. I cannot find the motivation perseverance and persistence to maintain a healthy diet, or sadly, even work out these days.

Meanwhile, in other news, but also related, I am plagued by unhealthy symptoms: headaches, fatigue, sinusitis, anxiety, allergies, dry skin, blah, blah. And I’m beginning to believe the messages I’ve read across the internet and in books: Sugar as Poison, Give up Sugar, Conscious Cleanse, Food Rules, A Year of No Sugar, Anti-Cancer. Ironically, sadly, I have almost been in-taking as much information as I have sugar.

But for me, the problem is not a lack of information, a lack of conviction; it is the courage to act on what I’m learning. To truly give myself the habit and discipline and honor of self-care–at the deepest level, the level where rewards are not immediate. And for this, I need a change of momentum.

Enter the big, scary word “cleanse.” I have always secretly–or not so secretly–looked down on people who did that kind of crazy stuff, thinking it was a whole lot of unhealthiness wrapped up in the guise of health. But I’m there. I need a different path, a place to begin, and where better than someone else telling me what to do? And so I am turning to the expert, a naturopathic doctor recommended by a friend. I like this cleanse because it’s not a crazy lemon-cayenne-ingestion-fest. It is a gradual release of ingredients through a 3 week period, into a short liquid phase. (We’ll see if that happens!)

It is the change of momentum that I need. And so far, I’m loving the vivacious fruits and veggies overtaking my refrigerator and life.

stir fry veggies

stocked fridge

today’s breakfast

today’s lunch