The last weeks of school, a colleague and I helped some stellar seniors develop, finesse, and practice their graduation speeches. And they rocked it! As I sat and listened to them, a river of emotions swelled within the banks of my heart: joy, honor, pride, sadness, closure, gratitude, humility.
Naturally after those speeches, as is the blessing of being surrounded by good-hearted people, I was showered with compliments for my coaching. And my responses to those compliments vacillated throughout this range:
“It wasn’t just me.”
Change the subject.
“They worked their asses off.”
<Insert minimizing joke here.>
“So how are you?”
Pretend like I didn’t hear.
Since then, I’ve been reflecting on how I receive compliments. Or rather, sadly, how I reject them: how I catch them, wad them up, pop them in my mouth, chew them, and launch them, with a trail of dangling drool, back at the person. And in my reflection, I reverse the roles, feeling the sting of my own saliva-drenched compliment smacking me in the face. I hate when people reject, minimize, or divert my compliments. I am known to emphatically say when people do so: “Thank you Mary,” as a way to model for them how to respond to my compliment. But to model is not just about creating a sentence frame… to model is to live a certain way, to not just carve a path but to walk first on it…to embrace the receipt of compliments as much as I embrace the gift of compliments.
In my reflection, I’ve wondered: what does a compliment signify? It is a present, bow-tied and delivered with an anticipatory, heavy-lidded bow of the eyes. It is a kiss, echoed in the thundering hooves of a heartbeat. It is a party, decorated with polk-a-dot banners and balloons of joy. It is a standing ovation, a thousand feet rooted into the earth lifting the honored into the sky. It is a rumor of the Divine, sacred glimpses into something beyond the wall-papered halls of humans.
How dare I reject that.
Part of my reflection has been thinking about how I have received other gifts that blossomed from someone’s garden of love. When Dave asked me to marry him–with a ring tucked into a plastic egg from a quarter-operated toy dispenser from CVS, in the red F-150 outside Chili’s during a rain storm, not on his knee physically but only in his heart (and perhaps in his version of the story)–I squealed; I cried; I said “yes;” I leaned in for a kiss; I celebrated; I basked in the moment, elongating it into an eternal ribbon in my heart.
I did not play humble.
I did not change the subject.
I did not pretend like I didn’t hear.
I did not minimize the moment by making a joke.
And in my surrender to the compliment, not only did I receive a gift, but I gave one as well.
When I think of that story, and when I think of my own moments of complimenting others, I realize that giving a compliment is giving a gift. A compliment comes from a place of love, a place of dignity, a place of light.
When I am the recipient, I need to honor–with authenticity and vulnerability and joy and grace–this sacred passing of love, dignity, and light.
Heather Wheat
Jun 11, 2015 @ 09:30:19
So good. I’ve been on the receiving end of the “Thank you, Mary!” admonishment many times. Love you mean it.
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Mary
Jun 13, 2015 @ 10:20:07
Well it’s time for me to be on that end!
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Heather Wheat
Jun 13, 2015 @ 10:23:42
I’ll call you on it 😏 💙
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Halyma
Jun 11, 2015 @ 09:34:49
Yes. Well times for my own existence and well expressed. Thank you for writing this little piece of reminder.
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Mary
Jun 13, 2015 @ 10:19:36
Thank you Halyma for reading and commenting!
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